this is exactly where im going to keep track of my life.
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its really is crazy how much people change, and how much people really are liars; even when its right to your face. it seems so surreal that im actually getting surgery on my knee in 2 days, but thats only one thing on top of many thats bothering me. i still cant grab how long i want this to last, because i really can care less. i know who the “real” people are in my life, and i can pretty much count them on about one hand. its so funny to think back to a few months ago when there wasnt a care about anything in the world and i was included in things, and then i look at today when i dont get asked to do shit. its pathetic. and to even think about all that ive done for every single person, im such a fool. i really am. i dont know how i didnt see this. i dropped everything that i was doing to help with things, to bring this one here, to help fix that, for what? for nothing. i get spit on in return and mocked because i dont go out. you would think that everyone knows about my leg, and how i cant do anything but yet noone calls, noone texts. i cant wait till im home for the next 4 months to see who comes to visit me. i can bet that its going to play out just as it is now, and that i dont exist. lets see how long it lasts. lets see who will make an impact now.
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cant wait for monday to come along so i can get my surgery. lets see who visits me so i know who i can erase from my life.
dcld:
Only a fool would say that.
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